That weird moment when despite all your previous pain and sadness from losing all those people in life you cared about, bizzarrely you suddenly just find yourself thinking you wouldn’t have it any other way, and that you are still glad you met these people so they are in your memory bank of people even though they are not physically in your life today anymore. And I find myself today to slowly smile warmly at these thoughts. It’s strange because you usually focus on your pain, your pain of being alone, and that is still there. But now I picture all those people I’ve met in life in my mind who were important to me in some way and see them all smiling, and I smile.
Fear of loss suddenly dissolves and all that is left is golden shining sunlight.